Leaving the shadowlands of Nostalgia
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A few weeks ago we saw folks considering an exodus from Discord as age verification gets rolled out globally. This is the era of centralisation, of objectification and mass surveillance. There's a term for that, but it puts you in mind merely of Big Tech and profit margins. When the danger really is more to decentralisation and our human rights. The danger is to how we can safely exist in our communities and to advocate for our human rights.
It's not always caused by Big Tech, sometimes it's our governments after they've been lobbied by Big Tech.
Prisoners of our own Nostalgia
Now I wish to be clear. I and my project Librecast are very much against age gating. So much so, that we stopped using Matrix.org because it and it's flagship Homeserver are domiciled in the UK. The online harms act has caused many UK sites to shutter, and other sites to block access to UK users. This is a digital rights issue.
This is also a privacy issue, which was always there in our walled gardens of Web 2.0, our bounded realms where what you put online could be packaged up and sold later. Which wasn't just your messages it was your digital footprints.
Discord already had an age verification leak of user data, so folks were feeling nervous. Those of us who advocated against Discord, may be feeling vindicated. But there is no way for us to be able to provide everything that the folks who used Discord used to manage their Communities.
So do we give up?
NO. Of course we don't give up.
But there's some thinking and reflection that we all need to do.
We shape our reality and our reality shapes us
Shadow memory
When I was a child my parents split up and my mother chose to leave my childhood town to move nine miles away. I was uprooted quite rudely from my community of friends and activities. I felt I moved to the chilly hinterland on the coast. North Coasts in Scotland tend to be chilly. The wind blows into your bones.
So every weekend when my Dad visited, we'd go to my former town. Have a coffee wander around and grieve. We did this for years. I didn't see my friends, but it was a place of comfort for nine year old me, walking on the high street.
Eventually I got a new start and built a new group and home in the big city when I chose to live with my Dad. It was very different. But the new circumstances helped me to heal.
I've moved cities since then, and even Aberdeen the city I love, doesn't feel like home anymore. It changed while I moved, and when you haven't been in a place to see the changes, you realise your home isn't there anymore. Your community has moved on. Had kids, made new friends.
I'd say I grieve this. But my childhood was an early lesson on how your place in a community is a moment in time. You can never go back there. Your rosy memories of the past and the connections you made will stay there in the past.
You will never experience that particular perfection again. The connections will move on. Perhaps you will meet folks again and reminisce. But it won't be the same.
So take the time to grieve this. Then be ready, for you can experience new connections and make new memories. You can build new ways for your communities to organise and be together, and I don't mean coding.
Nostalgia
The past is a foreign country; they do things differently there. L.P. Hartley The Go-Between_ (1953)
My formative years as an adult, were tied into University and competing in University Fencing. When I wasn't learning about Maths and Computer Engineering, I was training. I learned I loved Epee. I got team medals and a couple of Individual medals. I was a Vice President, and then a President of my University Fencing club. I competed with my team and qualified for British Universities Student Athletics. I earned my half and my full blue.
After University Finished, I did a few more years and met my partner at a fencing party.
I was hooked into a multi-city, multi club community. It was complicated and brilliant. I helped to setup and organise a local community competition.
As time went on work took precedence. We moved cities twice. We didn't fence as often, some clubs closed and some of the fencers like us, had work and other commitments.
The community changed, and the fencers that were left joined other clubs. My university class graduated and left the city.
Things change. That point in time with those intense friendships and connections fray to a thin thread of acquaintance. Some folks do grieve. I'd had this grief as a child. I learned to move on. It was a good lesson for me to learn in the early two thousands as I started to find others on the web.
Dot com blues
We had a plethora of websites that young folks and some adults joined. Not all of us grew up on Usenet or a BB board. Suddenly there was a riot of graphics and music auto playing on MySpace, or large comment parties on LiveJournal. I couldn't tell you what Bebo was as I bounced off it, my sibling loved it. Folks created Fansites on Geocities for bands or their favourite movies and shared their love, bootlegs and screenshots of their faves.
The Internet of our corporate Fae is rather bland compared to those early days.
Folks were used to having different accounts on different types of networks. It was rather scary for the unwary, on places like ICQ. Especially if you were femme presenting.
Gradually those sites were bought, stifled and retired out of sight. The communities scattered. The digital diasporas looked for a new home. We all chose differently, but sometimes we saw each other as we tried other networks.
Each time it happened I adjusted, found a new place to go. But I am of the first generation of the Web, We were used to new ideas, new interfaces. We knew that folks had different ideas of what a community was.
Our coders created software according to what they and their friends thought were cool. Folks came on and started to use it. The software evolved, partially shaped by the community, but the way the software was designed it shaped community interactions and workflows.
While Web 2.0 sought to keep you trapped, there's a point where folks decide to leave. It's hard to leave the spot where your friends and family post news. It's hard to leave the spot where your community groups organise. Sometimes you stay in a place longer than you should despite the fact everything is crumbling around you. On average mine is eighteen years. Nostalgia creates inertia, it keeps you imprisoned until you break your own bonds.
We're seeing the result of misplaced nostalgia in our walled gardens, in our communications and in our politics. There's a point in time when you put away childish things.
The walled gardens arrested our development in the same way my need to walk my old villages streets arrested mine. I was in an unhappy limbo. As a child I couldn't do much about it.
We are adults now. We can learn, we can grow. We can make new connections and sometimes some of our old connections come along with us.
We don't have the answer for an alternative to Discord yet. But at some point Discord also wasn't the answer to something else for a community. It hasn't been built yet. It certainly wont be built if you don't give the Discord community time to grieve and try out things so that they can say what would be better.
We all need to leave the shadow lands of our memory. They were a place in time. We can learn from them, but we should not let nostalgia dictate that these new spaces should be exactly the same. It's the chance for something new.
We need to build new places for our communities.

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