Pixie's Pad

A Celtic Pixie whomst might also be a dragon.Short stories, snippets, novel chapters, from WelshPixie

The Bad Space exists because its creator, https://ubiqueros.com/@Are0h / Ro, once set up an instance by and for Black folk after seeing the racism that got a pass on other instances, and then that instance – PlayVicious – got harassed off fedi by racists. Everyone involved in that instance got extreme levels of racist abuse and harassment, and a couple of the other people involved – a mod of PV, Marcia (https://scholar.social/@CaribenxMarciaX), with the help of Ginger (https://kitty.town/@gingerrroot) – started a hashtag, Fediblock, for calling out racism and other shit behaviour so that other instance admins were aware of it, and could block the sources of it, and thus save themselves from being targeted by the same abuse.

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A few weeks ago, Oliphant brought on five mods and one co-admin to oliphant.social. I was one of the mods, and we were all of us a diversely intersectional marginalized bunch of people, most of us who have our own established safe space instances, all of us who hang out in Fedimins (the fedi admins Discord group). His intent was to help build oliphant.social into a safe space instance, to have a diverse mod team who could catch the kind of things he'd miss as a white guy, and (this may have been the main factor of Oli bringing on a bunch of mods) to help him moderate the harassment and abuse AnarchoNinaWrites would get from randos in her mentions.

Nina had moved over from mastodon.social because of the harassment she was getting being on the biggest instance. Oli offered her a safer space on an instance that utilised both individual account-level blocks and instance blocks to maintain safety and assured her that he would do his best to protect her from that kind of harassment/abuse.

He told all of us individually, and expressed to us as a group, that we should moderate the instance as if it were our own, with our full discretion. I asked him myself what kind of moderation style he expects from me and explained that I'm pretty strict on .art, and he said that's exactly what he was looking for. Others asked if we should be moderating the internal users as well as external and he said again that we should moderate it as we moderate our own instances, so yes.

While some of us used our 'known' names (I was on there as WelshPixie) and some of us linked from our profiles there to our 'known' handles, others set up anon identities because they've been targeted in the past and didn't feel comfortable with being fully exposed on an open instance. This becomes relevant later.

Now that that's set the scene, here's what happened, as neutrally as I can:

Nina made a post in which she said 'with dicks' to imply men. We noted the transmisic phrasing (Oli had previously mentioned she's trans, and Nina has posted publicly since then that she is trans). One of the mods (who has given me permission to say she's trans) sent her a very VERY polite, friendly message – not an official warning, just a message – pointing out how this could be interpreted, asked if she'd mind changing the phrasing.

Nina deleted the post (for other reasons) and brought up to Oliphant that she thought she would be protected from this kind of thing on his instance.

You can see the mod DM she was sent here:

https://web.archive.org/web/20230830062801/https://jorts.horse/@AnarchoNinaWrites/110975605323099983

By Nina's own admission in that thread:

“I did however, once again, pull my admin friend, the person who had started the sever aside and say “look I can't go forward like this right? If I'm publishing stuff that might just get deleted, I should go back to my website.” I was assured that nobody had it in for me (see above) and that the old admin themselves would prevent anyone from banning my account without talking to them; because again, at this point I think it's weaponized reporting from randos. I dunno that the co-admin hates me.”

The next day, Nina made a bunch of posts using the phrase 'Pig Empire' – and this next part is important – in the context of globalism and bankers, which is further important in the context of Nina already having a bad reputation with the Jewish community on the fedi after several prior events (her account is banned from multiple Jewish instances), with her website co-opting the word 'pogrom' for non-Jewish use, with loads of posts on her site being tagged 'holocaust' while not being holocaust related – individually small things, perhaps, but there was a larger picture to consider.

Here's why 'globalist' and related concepts are a rallying cry for fascists and traumatising for Jews: https://forward.com/community/412627/globalism-anti-semitism/

Here's a deep dive on 'pig' and antisemitism: https://jewishjournal.com/commentary/opinion/346381/jews-romans-and-pigs-an-impossible-history/

Here's an overview of economic antisemitism: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Economic_antisemitism

Individually, those things might not have been concerning. Together, they paint a more problematic picture that could be easily avoided by some re-wording to clarify meaning without playing into antisemitic tropes. We thought, hey, Nina's antifash. She's one of us. Being made aware that you're using words that harm marginalized groups is good, right?

So far, we had just been discussing this internally, but agreed that we should bring it up to Nina. Oli wanted to message Nina himself to talk about this with her in the context of his promise to provide her a harassment-free space on his instance, and the mod team was fine with that (if not disgruntled at someone seemingly getting special treatment that was in direct contradiction to the team being brought on in the first place to help make the instance a safe space), until someone sent in a report with the same concerns about antisemitic dog-whistles. Taking Oli's earlier assurance with us that he did want us to moderate the instance as we'd moderate our own, one of the mods sent a message – again, not a warning, but a DM – just opening a conversation about dog-whistles, and again, polite and friendly in tone. The DM opened with bringing up 'Pig Empire' with the intention of broadening the conversation to include the greater problematic context of globalism and bankers, but Nina stopped responding to the conversation before that could happen, and again, went to Oli.

You can see screenshots of that DM and Nina's response in the same archived link above (https://web.archive.org/web/20230830062801/https://jorts.horse/@AnarchoNinaWrites/110975605323099983).

At this point, Nina made an account on jorts.horse where she had started subtooting about the two moderator DMs and the situation in general, and was doing the same from her account on oliphant.social. I spoke with Oli about what the situation was and whether Nina was migrating fully to another instance or was waiting on hearing from Oli about anything, anxious about wanting to minimise harm and blowback on the mods who were just doing what they'd been brought to the instance to do. Oli conveyed that we could limit her account if we felt it would help, and impressed on me how important Nina's posts are to her and that she wouldn't want to lose any of her content. I passed this to the mod team, who in an effort to minimise damage (and again, to moderate the instance as we'd moderate our own), Nina's account was frozen by the co-admin and the posts with antisemitic dog-whistles were archived, deleted, and the archived posts linked to Nina in the moderation report so that Nina had copies of everything and wouldn't lose them.

Nina used her account on jorts.horse to start ramping up a dogpile of the mod team and the co-admin. Oli had told her himself that 'turns out, the co-admin doesn't like you', which Nina posted a screenshot of ( https://web.archive.org/web/20230830073509/https://jorts.horse/@AnarchoNinaWrites/110975428887021296 ), as well as linking to the oliphant.social /about page which had all of the mods and co-admin accounts listed, and THAT is why it was relevant that some of the mods stayed anonymous. People in Nina's thread have already started up the violent rhetoric, and the co-admin took the oliphant.social instance offline as an emergency response to protect people from getting targeted by Nina (it's back up now, with the mod info on the /about page removed).

TLDR? Two mods tried having polite conversations with Nina about problematic language that we thought she would be happy to be called out on, and Nina has escalated it into a huge tirade about how unfairly she was treated by a bunch of incompetent mods:

“The six weeks, it was just me posting on his server, without a small army of mods who I sincerely believe couldn't run a Church's Chicken, I am not saying that to be mean, these folks are not suitable at all to positions of authority”

(https://web.archive.org/web/20230830075713/https://jorts.horse/@AnarchoNinaWrites/110976520461927600)

Yeah, hi, I'm the mastodon.art admin. The other mods and co-admin you interacted with all run respected safe space instances on fedi. I understand you're upset, but you do not get to turn this around as an attack on the bunch of underprivileged marginalized people who incredibly politely called you out on some bad wording in an effort to protect the marginalized identities of both themselves and the other people on the fediverse who are exposed to your posts. They should not have to suffer a tirade of abuse from you or your rallied followers as a response to them putting in the voluntary work to make fedi safer and more inclusive.

If you enjoyed reading, let me know @WelshPixie!

This will be a long post. I'm going to discuss recent fedi 'drama', particularly around Stux/mstdn.social and Byron/Universeodon, to call out the problematic behaviours by white guys that I'm repeatedly exposed to as a demifemme admin (experiencing this behaviour probably applies to anyone who is perceived as 'not male', though), and by the people who perpetuate the behaviour by either agreeing with it, or not calling it out: misogyny, DARVO, gaslighting, and abuser tactics. Content Warning: this post will discuss those tactics, and tangentially mention abusive relationships.

Part 1: Misogyny

To Stux, to Byron, to the privileged white guys who respond to my fediblock posts with threats of litigation, who try to bully and threaten me when I speak up about you, and to everyone who enables you: you're misogynists.

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Fields of grey under a washed out, pallid sky.

A flat breeze carrying soporofic piano melodies that crackle on occasion with the degrading connection to the mainframe that seeds out thousands and thousands of connections all playing from speaker to microphone to speaker to microphone to -

A silver sedan with faux leather seats takes you from the pick up point into the city. They put you up in a box of a room, deep in a maze of endless grey towers of uniform height and uniform width and uniform spacing that draw on and on to an insipid horizon. Indoors the air still smells of oil. The carpet, cheap and tacky, is printed with dollar signs. The linen is clean but the threadcount is as low as your expectations.

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I'm bitter about the whole Hachyderm thing and I've been sitting on it letting my brain figure out why, so here are some words.

In April 2022 a tech personality spun up a Mastodon instance and her followers flocked to it. She used it to amplify herself across the fediverse, the instance grew to close to 50,000 total members in the course of the following months, during which time she said some Bad Things*, was called on those bad things by the fedi community, had long hard conversations about those bad things, promised to do better, every time with Hachyderm being silenced or defederated from by a few other instances, until recently when it happened again and a few more instances went 'okay this doesn't sit right with us so we're going to silence or we're going to defed' – at which point she threw her arms up in the air, had herself a little livestream exit party on Twitch, and ditched.

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MC/You/The Tarnished, frolicking through a field of lush grass, startling the grazing sheep

What is this world, with its golden skies Where everything wants to kill me? Who are these people who never die, Who am I?!

Look at these sheep, why do they roll? Is my mount a horse, or a goat? I don't know! Why do pots walk on legs With long arms but no heads I don't know, I don't know, I don't know!

BLAIDD, sitting on a rock under the moonlight, brooding

I am not mongrel nor a mutt, I am a wolf (he is a wolf)

I am part man, but most of all, I am a wolf (he is a wolf)

When the moon is full I'll howl, And you can hear it in my growl I am forlorn But most of all I am a wolf (he is a wolf)

RANNI, in doll form, sitting on a stone throne

Come find me, oh Tarnished, I'll tell you a tale Why the dead did not die, why our skin is so pale For The Lands Between suffer and I am to blame I'm the witch, I'm the witch who stole death

Will you help me, fair Tarnished, to set the world right? With my brother the blacksmith and brother the knight? I will will gift you a bell and a wolf from a spell I'm the witch, I'm the witch who stole death

If you enjoyed reading, let me know @WelshPixie!

It was several days later when the trader Nofis Lovt and his escort, the serpentine Deacon Kaiss, returned to the Missionary camp. The hand-wagon that had been tightly packed with little more than frippery when the pair had left was now stocked with equally meretricious junk from the Nyis villagers. Still, Bishop Voris had to show something for his endeavours, and some vainglorious idiot somewhere would pay well to have one of the native’s pieces of pottery on display in their opulent quarters where they could boast about how remarkable it all was that the backwards mud-dwellers could produce art.

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Like a sheet of polished silver the Siashim lake stretched out from the shore to the mountains in the distance. It was a quiet morning with no trace of wind to lick the water into gentle waves and the surface stood still and glossy, reflecting an empty pale blue back up at the cloudless sky.

Oleipha curled her toes into the damp sand and felt its sodden grains cool and smooth against her skin. She had risen early, long before the second sun had crested the horizon and bathed the land in its golden glow, and stood alone on the bank of the Siashim soaking in the solitude. Later her village would be a bustle of activity; the men would head to the quarry and begin the daily stream of clay-filled baskets back to the village, the women would gather around the lakeshore and gossip over laundry, the children would see to their chores, and when done, they would play and their laughter would touch everything.

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Alwyn’s eyes flickered open and focused on the mossy ceiling. Droplets of water trickled down white-yellow stalactites and dripped in staccato rhythm to the rough stone floor.

His head hurt, his skin was clammy. His heart thudded hard in his chest.

“I know, I know. Not quite the lavish standard of Darkshear’s tavern lodgings, is it?”

His neck hurt too, and he winced as he turned in the direction of the voice. A dark figure leaned against the back wall, one leg cocked up, hands tucked loosely into his waistband.

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Written in 2014

Ibrahim Lamorde, founder of the fifth regent, sits alone at his desk in an empty palace. The King and Queen have long since left for Tertia, along with their royal escort, henchmen, serving staff and other various retinues. The remainder of the palace occupants have abandoned the building and now only Ibrahim remains, mustering the resolve to see this one through to the last.

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