Because

but it doesn't matter because i am just treading water spinning in circles swimming against the current and slowly falling beneath

and it doesn't matter because i am in pain i have always been in pain and nothing will ever change that

and it doesn't matter because we live and we die all within the blink of an eye and nothing i do will ever amount to anything more than some scribbles on the cave walls

but it doesn't matter because i am not alone my life touches yours and your life touches theirs

and it doesn't matter because i am a stone tossed into a lake i am ripples on the surface and i will be felt

but it doesn't matter because the world is cold unfeeling unthinking and it doesn't know that we are here

but it doesn't matter because the world is full of people of love and of the laughter of children

and it doesn't matter because i love you and i am here with you

but it doesn't matter because love can't save everyone it cannot cure it cannot fix and it cannot cheat death

and it doesn't matter because the world keeps turning; it doesn't pause to remember

and it doesn't matter because i am here and you are so far away and my arms cannot reach across the ocean

but it doesn't matter because you have touched every life every path you ever crossed and you have shaped the path for those that come after you

and it doesn't matter because we are ourselves made of the pieces of everyone we've met shaped by the holes that they leave when they can no longer stay

it doesn't matter because i love you, because you love me, and maybe that's enough

but it doesn't matter because we still hurt anyway